I’ve always been a girl with a plan. Whether it was mapping out my highschool or college courses, where I want to be at certain ages of my life and now with my running training.
A plan is what always makes me feel on track, organized and safe. It relieves that awful anxiety of NOT KNOWING, it helps mentally prepare you for what is coming next and a plan makes sense.
Though, recently in my personal life and in my running life I realize that a plan is not always going to go as planned. Can you really plan for everything? No, but you can be aware of things that might happen and keep tabs on them in the back of your mind and not let them consume you.
I believe all my stresses over running last week were due to a feeling of not fulfilling my so-called running plan. I know I am doing my best to follow the plan and that sometimes LIFE is going to happen.
I am vowing in ALL aspects of my life to chill out. Take a chill pill. Chill-ax.
Whatever it takes to get my emotional rollercoaster to the destination it needs to go to.
I believe that things happen for a reason, and that in the end everything usually works itself out. So all my stressin’ about missing a run or running too much, or eating something not so good for me, or worrying about things that will happen in the future is just taking me away from my life experiences now.
Destination 26.2 is more than just an ending point in San Francisco at a finish line. It’s a whole journey of meeting all of you and experiencing these ups and downs along the way.
I don’t want to miss out on the journey of my life because I am so infatuated with the end goal. As Kara mentioned in a very heartfelt post yesterday, changing different aspects of your life (ie.. losing weight, getting married, getting a higher paying job) doesn’t make everything all peaches and cream.
You are in charge of how you feel about yourself and your life. It has to come from YOU first.
So my rant for the day is to remind myself that I am ON track. I am where I need to be and I will reach my destination with tons and tons of awesome experiences and memories along the way.
I am not letting a piece of paper (a virtual google doc) dictate my life. I am just going to live for me, do what I can do and BE AWESOME.
Are you a plan freak like me? Or do you live for spontaneity?
Obviously, I am not ripping up the running plan, but I am going to be more chill about life in general. And just do what I can do and choose to be happy.