I feel kind of feel bad for announcing J. Alabama’s deployment awhile back and then sort of leaving you in the dark after that. There were obviously many reasons for that… OPSEC (Amy said it best), my personal safety while I was staying alone in Texas, as well as the idea of putting my emotions out on the internet about this delicate situation kind of scared me.
I can happily say that we are now a few months into the deployment, and I’m a bit shocked at how quickly it feels like its going.
I’m not going to say that it’s been easy, because it hasn’t at times. But I’ve also handled myself emotionally way better than I thought a pregnant woman living alone with her husband at war could.
I think it has also helped knowing that the living alone part was only temporary, as my parent’s have graciously invited me to live with them during the deployment. Seriously the best idea ever especially since I will have the little guy at the end of April.
I have made many efforts to connect with people at Fort Bliss, get involved with the FRG & other organizations and even tried looking for a job, but these types of things take time. And with my ever growing belly and the shorter timeline of baby coming I knew being around my family in a comfortable environment and with their help would be the smartest choice for many reasons. So with that I’m making the move back to Idaho until J. Alabama returns.
Since making this decision I’ve felt more at ease with the idea of deployment. Most likely because I’m now not just sitting by myself counting the months, weeks, days and hours until his arrival. I’m going to be surrounded by family, friends, and an already connected social calendar when I get home to help the time fly a little bit quicker.
The hardest part about the deployment for me is not being able to tell my husband everything that is going on. Our contact with each other is very random, and it may be days between a single email, or weeks between calls. So by the time I get to talk to him my pregnancy brain kicks in and I have to remember all the fun and important stuff to tell him in a short amount of time. We have not been able to skype yet, but I periodically send him pics of the baby bump so he can still be a part of this pregnancy experience.
Being around other military wives has helped me to sort of feel better about this situation, as we are all going through a similar experience. But at times it also makes me even sadder because it’s sort of looming over all of us here. Being back home around family and friends is uplifting because it feels like I’m on vacation or something. Though at times it can be tough too because I don’t think everyone can quite relate to what I’m going through.
All in all, I would say that I am blessed to have a huge support network of family and friends wherever they live! I know I’ve got my Mil-spouses to call on when I need to talk military, and I know I’ve got the comfort of my family to keep my spirits up too.
I knew deployment wasn’t going to be easy, especially with a baby on the way. But so far I’d say I’m doing better than I thought I would be. Also I’m just happy that we are a chunk of the way through!